(Whatever version I'm currently hearing is my favorite, so I just chose the album version.)
Recently I found a live performance video where she explained the song's origin before she sang it. Here's a transcription from the net:
"The initial inspiration came actually after seeing Leaving Las Vegas, which I found to be this beautiful and tragic love story of these two people who were rather pathetic, both in their own rights, and yet completely accepted each other for who they were; all the beautiful things, and all the ugly things. That's a lot to do with what this is about, accepting ugly things, and being able to appreciate the fact that someone can love you for all those nasty things, especially when you think you are completely unlovable. There's some great comfort in that."Wow. I've never seen the movie, but this helps explain why the song grabs me like it does. On top of Ms. McLachlan's brilliant songwriting and vocal skills (and great band), this comes from a place near and dear to my heart.
It doesn't mean much...I've felt like this several times in my life, but the ones that stand out all involve total, relentless, utterly forgiving love that surrendered much to me and left me feeling that this was, indeed, all I had to give. Some of these were God moments, others involve my wife, or falling in love with people others saw as flawed, giving in to that love, adopting them as it were.
It doesn't mean anything at all...
The life I've left behind me
Is a cold room...
I've crossed the last lineI don't know what the author means by "Where every step I took in faith betrayed me and led me from my home", but that can be read in multiple ways. I take it as betraying my quest for security and safety. Love always involves risk, and the reward is always worth it.
From where I can't return,
Where every step I took in faith
And led me from my home.
Is all that I have to give?
You take me in,If that isn't the definition of love, I don't know what is. Absolute love, no reservations, it goes beyond mere (mere!) forgiveness into overwhelming grace. God strips away all the crap, to reveal the core, the beauty, of who we are. True love does that. Other people have done it for me, and by His grace, I do it for others. But it only works if we recognize that love. Otherwise it feels like we're being assaulted when someone tries to strip away the ugliness.
No questions asked;
You strip away the ugliness
That surrounds me.
Are you an angel?How well I know that feeling that all I can do is disappoint. But that's the sign of someone who doesn't know what it is to be loved!
Am I already that gone?
I only hope
That I won't disappoint you...
When I'm down here
On my knees...
Surrender is always a scary thing. Too often, we only do it when we feel trapped, like a soldier with a gun in his or her face. But it runs out there are things we should surrender to long before we get to that point. Love is at the top of the list, especially unconditional, unstoppable, unending love.
Sweet surrender, indeed.
(Lyrics courtesy of lyrics007.com)